only now is real
It’s scarily comforting
That nothing else
Not the past nor the future
Is even reality
Just the now
The hum under my feet
As I zoom under ground
The breath in my chest
The bass in my ears
This is the realness
No worry
No care that I have
Matters now
Because now all I can do is sit here
And breathe and type and listen and watch
There so much going on at every moment
And yet all I’ve wanted to do is tune it out
Turn it off
Muffle the noise and sleep
Peacefully
Without dreams of robot overlords
Or petty ladder climbing sheep
The only stillness I find
Is in my own heartbeat
In the sureness that one more is coming and then another until the end.
Only now is real and thank goodness
Even the past isn’t real to me
They aren’t my memories
It’s like they happened to another person
How could that person be me?
Are you done punishing yourself for someone else mistakes?
Are you done punishing yourself for what you don’t even remember?
Are you done yet?
Are you tired yet?
Don’t let what you don’t remember
Who you used to be
Ruin your now
Because only now is real