In the Pause

I never believed in god

Until I saw her

In the pause

When I exhaled

and didn’t breathe in

Right away

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I never believed in god

Until I felt her

Energy

shooting out of my fingertips

After dancing my heart out 

sweating at 7am surrounded by 300 of the tribe

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I never believed in god

Until I realized

That it was

really

Just that

I didn’t believe in myself

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Now that I can see

I cannot un see her

Un see me

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The power

That I hold

That sits between my head and my feet

In my heart

In my lungs

In every single cell

-

And now

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I see her everywhere.

I see god everywhere.

I see me in everyone.

and everyone in me.  

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I never believed in god

Because I didn’t believe I was worthy

Of such a love

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But we are not human

Having a divine experience.

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We are divine -

having a human experience.

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And in this moment

In the pause

Everything changed.

Humboldt Redwoods, 2018 - Mark Armstrong