There's so much going on and I just want to slow it all down.
i can see Times Square glittering and hectic from here.
i can see a tiny brown girl maybe 2 or 3 ripping up grass and spinning around while she chucks in the air over her head cackling. There is grass in her hair - she is so happy.
That contentment. That living in the present.
That's what I'm looking for. the reminder to stop and look around. That this is what is important right now. That in this moment this is what it's all about:
The wind on my face
the sun sparkling and dancing through the trees
the kids laughing on the carousel
New Yorkers and tourists alike just soaking up the last rays of august
trying to remember to slow down
but not stop
starting over can be so much harder than continuing.
but it also might yield something greater
its the letting it go I want
the acceptance that I cannot control this
okay you win but so do I
because I can control me
i won't compromise
I will be authentic
I will be genuine
I won't worry about having the respect of those who are small.
ill have have to evolve
ill have to grow
I'll have to reinvent
And this time.
With a clear mind and open heart.