It feels like time
But also maybe it’s just
Of the subway rattling my heart
Just enough to make me think
Just maybe - it’s more her fault
She’s a shapeshifter
It’s all about what you let her do to you
What you let effect you
She can have you land softly or
Throw you to the ground
What you can’t unsee or unknow once she shows you what she’s got.
If you’ve got a lot - she’ll give you more and more and more until you don’t remember what it’s like to have nothing and you lose yourself in things. In money. In the pseudo progress of the hamster wheel that spins and
If you have nothing or lilttle
She can take you for all you’ve got
You’ll miss your bus, the subway will stall
You’ll be late
You’ll have to skip lunch
You’ll have to rush
You’ll miss it
You'll miss out.
But then she comes back around reminding us that laying in the park under a big ol tree
Even if your rent is too damn high
The people who want to be here
Are the reason to be here
Have an energy
That can’t be contained
HAVE to be here.
have to be in it.
In the middle Of the world.
Ready to create
Ready to destroy
Ready to connect
And dance and laugh and fight and fuck and cry and sing and fall down over and over again
I’ve been beaten down, but
Maybe it’s time to go -
Maybe it’s time to finally stay.