polarity

It feels like time

To start 

Leaving

But also maybe it’s just 

The vibration 

Of the subway rattling my heart 

Just enough to make me think

Just maybe - it’s more her fault

Than mine. 

She’s a shapeshifter

It’s all about what you let her do to you

What you let effect you

She can have you land softly or

Throw you to the ground

What you can’t unsee or unknow once she shows you what she’s got.

If you’ve got a lot - she’ll give you more and more and more until you don’t remember what it’s like to have nothing and you lose yourself in things. In money. In the pseudo progress of the hamster wheel that spins and

Spins

Spins

And goes

Nowhere. 

If you have nothing or lilttle 

She can take you for all you’ve got

You’ll miss your bus, the subway will stall

You’ll be late 

You’ll have to skip lunch

You’ll have to rush

You’ll miss it

You'll miss out.

But then she comes back around reminding us that laying in the park under a big ol tree

IS FREE

Even if your rent is too damn high

The people who want to be here

Are the reason to be here

They

Have an energy

That can’t be contained

They

HAVE to be here. 

They 

have to be in it.

In the middle Of the world. 

Ready to create 

Ready to destroy

Ready to connect

And dance and laugh and fight and fuck and cry and sing and fall down over and over again

And

Get

Back

Up.

I’ve been beaten down, but 

I’m back.

Up.

Maybe it’s time to go - 

Maybe it’s time to finally stay.